The color red has connotations ranging from pain to lust to commitment to rage. As a queer man I am often looking to the past for clarity in the present. The victims of the Pompeii eruption lost everything in minutes, but their excavation revealed a society of modern day social deviance and sexual intrigue. From Blood to Lust is a series of self-portraits using tin foil to obscure my own emotions and desires; a reflection of life lived to survive as a gay person. Starting with masturbation through anal penetration and ending with the collapse of an orgasm, these life-sized photographs were created through the mundane moments of life—the daydreams of love for men I could not have, the ennui of isolation, the boredom for a society built around heterosexual paradigms.

This project is a work in progress.